Teenage years are for "figuring out who you are." okay, well when am I going to figure this out? To be honest, I'm not even sure myself what/who I want to be. I take that back. I know what I want to be, a band director. I'm sure everyone knows that. Maybe, what I mean is that I don't know how I want to go about it.
How do you think of me? Am I the good quiet girl who always does her homework? Am I the person who is a ton of fun to be around? The one who can make you laugh no matter what? That one kid who is just always around?
I think that I am the good quiet girl, in general. This is only because that is what I think it "right." I am this, but don't necessarily like it. I mean I do, it's just sometimes that is not what I want to be. There are a bunch of things that I would rather be. For example, I wanna be that person who is always in the middle of the circle making everyone laugh, the "life of the party." Also, sometimes I want to be a bad kid. Like, I want to skip classes, or tell a teacher off when they piss me off; maybe even cheat on a huge test. But I don't. Why is that? Because I have parents who know what they are doing, and are pretty freaking awesome at it. I would also like to be the person who walks down the hall and has to say Hi to everyone because they have so many friends.
I don't understand why I'm thinking any of this. I am perfectly content with who I am, what I do and such because as I said before, who I am is right. When I am in my group of best friends I am all of the 'people' I talked about. Could this mean that this confusion, or whatever you want to call it, is because I'm not being my true self all the time?
(I hate when I think too much)
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you know what's strange(well, not that strange)?
ReplyDeleteI never pegged you for someone who thinks too intently on things. Not saying you don't think, just that you don't sit and think.
hmm, pardon the mixed up answers:
i think certain situations call for different parts of your personality, you can't (or really shouldn't be) completely yourself in every situation because each situations demands something different of you. i think that's how people learn to grow, because these foreign situations call for them for be different than how they've been, and if they learn something from the situation they may or may not grow from it.
In math yesterday, I saw that the teacher left tomorrow's quiz out on the shelf, and i had the perfect opportunity to take the test and get all the answers, but I didn't. Not because of some moral conscious, but my philosophy in that instance was: well, the quiz is to test what I know, not how well i can cheat. If i was THAT concerned about my grade, I would have already been doing things to make it so I wouldn't resort to cheating, just because it's a better payoff to learn than cheat.
loud girls annoy me most days.
i think in the next 2 years things will be a bit clearer in terms of your future.
thus far, i haven't had a moment where i thought "god this morgan chick, why the hell am i talking to her?"
i think that people, in general, like to define themselves by everything they want to do, everything they can't do, but less often what they are good at doing.
surprisingly, even to myself, I do sit and think a lot. And I hate it because then I come up with something like what I wrote.
ReplyDelete"God this Morgan chick, why the hell am I talking to her?" Hah I'm glad you haven't had one of those moments. :)
I Agree that different situations call for different parts of your personality, but I don't like that. haha
how do you think i feel about my blog?
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