I'm feeling you.

Woo! I think I'm going to buy a new trumpet...and a car. haha I love having a job. Joy asked me to go to sonic today with her, frank, Ronnie and (someone else who I can't remember) but my mom wouldn't let me go :(. I called in to work today because I had to go to the doctor. Btw this is just all the random things going on in my head haha. Jeremy makes me smile :) and Nepo gives a great hug and smells pretty amazing haha. At band, me Jeremy, Nepo and I had a threeway hug and of course Nepo then whispered, "Let's have a threesome, I'll be the sherif" I love him. Wow I got a lot of hugs today. While hugging jon, I touched his butt haha on accident and then on purpose just to mess with him.

Driving around Bolingbrook with the windows down and radio loud is super fun...when you aren't the one paying for gas hehe In order to acess my bank account, I need my mom's signature which is STUPID. But whateva. People on facebook are dumb. My radio is on right now and two stations are coming in at the same time. If I paid attentiion when Ms Noga talked about mega hurtz or whatever I might know why, but I don't :D

I owed my dad $10 so I gave it to him in all change baha. Monday is national watermelon day :D I'm going to have a lot of money in my pocket tomorrow. WHoooo. If margarita pays me grrrrrr.

The chicago cubs are awesome. My dog ate a mouse today. Good thing I wasn't home because I probably would have puked. Ugh why would he eat a mouse? That's disgusting haha. I prefer to write in purple pen than anything else. I hate pencils becuase it smears. Hanerhoff knows more about my "Love" interests than a lot of my friends do... hahahaha AWKWARD. I'll leave it at that... lol

July 29th

Band started yesterday and it was really fun. I enjoy being in the sax section but I feel out of place haha I should be a flute. Well Lucy, Dakota, Rey, and Brittany make me want to be because they all told me they miss me haha. RMB is finna be so fun this year. and I actually think this school year is going to be fun too :D


Margarita owes me $135 and Ari acted like a freaking baby today. Since Im giving Ari sax lessons, I told her what book to get, rita still hasn't gotten it so I can't give her kid anymore lessons until she has it. Needless to say, I'm annoyed with their family. Andrea also acted like a baby so I'm done with her too lol.

that's a big fat FUCK YOU

For the past couple weeks I have been trying to write a song because I don't know how else to control emotions. Writers get writers block when they can't think of anymore stories to write. I have song block. Only that isn't a good name for it. Because I know exactly what I want this song to be about, as cliched as it is, no words can express this.

I'm just gonna put it out there. I'm upset that *#$&% is no longer my friend because of her being jealous. WHAT THE FUCK. How can two people go from chilling all day after school and then talking on the phone at night to not speaking at all? It doesn't even make sense. She was worried that her friends liked me better than they did her. I don't even understand. I tried to make it better, I really did. I don't know what she wants from me. I'm sorry I'm so fucking awesome that people like me better than they do her. hah not really. but c'mon. I text her and all I get is, "I can't talk I'll text you later" but do I ever get a text? you bet not.

I made a new friend, and she's awesome. We played softball, it was cool. but she turned out to be *#$&%'s friend too. what do you know, *#$&% told her some untrue things about me, and the new friend hasn't texted me since.

Back when school was still going on, I wrote a crap song about this that sucked. Didn't help.

This is like the episode on Jonas I watched today. Nick couldn't write a song....until he had something to write about. I have something important to me, and I can't even write about it.
BLECH