Opening Night.

Today was opening night! yayyyy. I was amazing, and I had so much fun! I love knowing that my friends care as much as they do :D. After I went a la casa de Brendan for a "pasta party and small gathering" I actually wasn't antisocial and went. Who woulda thought? and I'm really glad that I did too. It was fun just like talking to people I know but just don't normally talk to. and I found out that nepo gives a great hug ;)

I got my license today, finally. I went to the store with Dana and Ari, and then picked up Shannon for a 6 minute ride around town. (which was super fun becuase I lover her!) I have plans with 4 different people this weekend. What bothers me about that is that these people have NEVER asked me to do something. But now I have a license so I can drive them. At first I was just like oh, this is cool people actually want to hang out with me. But no. I am just annoyed by that. I don't have a problem going to pick up my close friends to do stuff but really? way to make a kid feel like poop.

Annnnyyywho, Dana's basketball game is at 9. We have to leave the house at 8:30. That is in less than 7 hours from now. Oh jeeze haha

Jul09 Jul10

I have been being a really good kid the past few weeks. I am getting (semi) good grades, I've been cleaning up after myself, offering favors here and there. And it helps that I haven't been home much lately either haha :) All this "brown nosing" has paid off. My mom likes the plan!

The plan isss..... July 9th Milwaukee concert with Shannon, Dana, Ari, my mom, and Rita. Then coming home and on the 10th, Chicago concert with Shannon, and Alysha? The 11th, having no voice :D :D :D

This will be AMAZING! <3

Music.

I love music more than anything I can think of. It amazes me that listening to one song can just change my mood like that *snaps* hahaha. But seriously I was in the worst mood ever so I decided to listen to jonas song and then it was all good :)

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Today was the second time I saw the jonas 3-D concert experience, and I'm going again tomorrow haha. It is so wrong how much I love them, but whatever :)

Demi, oh man. Why can't I just be her? haha because really? She has great music, a great voice, and she is good friends with the love of my life lmao. I love her like times a million. btww I am learning don't forget on guitar. Pretty badass :D

How Crazy Is That?

I played an oboe for the first time today around 3:30. It is now 6:00 and I can play all the notes up to a "D" above the staff :D

I am awesome lol

"The Fountain"

In The Fountain Tom tries to keep Izzy alive because he does not want to suffer the grief of losing his beloved wife. What I am trying to get across is that he is doing it for himself and not her. He would rather Izzy suffer than just die and move on to the "better things" that she wants.

To be as honest as I can, I have not prayed in a long time, yeah it is awful I know but get over it. Last night I prayed for my Grandma for a good 10-20 minutes, I'm not too sure. Was I doing the same thing as that tom guy? I can't decide. I prayed for her to be o.k. But when I think about it she is 90 years old, and happy. What if she would rather just move on? I thought that I was doing the right thing but now pondering about it I can't decide. I have spent endless hours today thinking about this because my mom gave me the "Grandma is really old but she had a happy life" speech today. (I am waaay to old for that anyways).

While I was watching the fountain I thought to myself "dang that guy is a jerk just let her go." What does that say about me? That would, basically, make me a hipocrit. And as a side thought: why was it such perfect timing that this is happening just as we finished watching that movie in English?

I don't know what is making me feel worse, the fact that my Grandma is dying or the fact that I was a big a jerk as Tom from the movie. I am worrying myself sick, actually sick to my stomach.And to make it worse, I can't go see my grandma because she has a bad infection and can catch just about anything and it could be what does it.

Boo schedules!

Monday
7:30-2 School
2:30-3:30 Pit
4-5 Math tutoring
5-10 Homework
10:30 Bed


Tuesday
7:30-2 school
3-5 Visit to hospital for Grandma
5:30- 10 Homework
10:30 bed


Wednesday
7:30-2 School
2:30-3:30 Pit
4-5 Math tutoring
*some sort of disgusting fast food dinner*
6-10 Homework
10:30 bed


Thursday
7:30-2 School
3-5 Visit to grandma
5:30-10 homework
10:30 bed


Friday
7:30-2 School
2:30-3:30 pit
4-6 "quality" time with the sister (ickkk)
6:15-? Pep band game


Do you see the point I am trying to make? I hate doing the same thing every single day. I NEED some change!!!!!!!